Whoosah……..times a zillion….
“Besides the noble art of getting things done, is the nobler art of leaving things undone.”
I had a “moment” mid-week a few weeks ago in the middle of yet another conversation that seemed to be going nowhere fast, and right then, I instinctively knew that if I didn’t find some time to get off the maze I was currently in, things would quickly go awry…. and it almost did. I found myself disappointed, disillusioned and just downright annoyed by things that were happening all around me. Now, I recognize that people are going to be just who they are so a couple of days ago, I had had enough and decided that it was time to get off the “Beaten path.” Without a word to anyone but three people, I packed a bag, put my music in heavy rotation, filled the gas tank and just drove until I got to the destination I had chosen for the night. The further I got away from my environment, my shoulders no longer felt as heavy and my heart began to feel better. I took No phone calls, answered no texts, no emails, stayed completely off social media for three solid days and that is what it took to breathe deeply enough to find my way out of the chaos that had begun to reign inwardly.
I ended up near the Delaware River Water Gap, somewhere between Jersey and New York. The scenery was pristine, I saw no one I knew and after checking into a hotel, found the most quaint restaurant called “The Charlotte’s Web” where everything was cooked to order and delightfully fresh… My heart felt lighter… roamed through a nearby mall and picked up something to read… heart felt lighter still.
It is difficult to over emphasize what getting comfortable, lighting a candle, breathing deeply and choosing to focus on light and enlightnement does to the psyche but when I woke up this morning and looked in the mirror, I could tell from my eyes that I was back to my old self. In the middle of breakfast, I ran across a column written by Martha Beck in the ‘O” magazine entitled ” Off the Beating Path” and what I read within that article, felt like confirmation from the universe that I had done just the right thing by stopping without warning and doing nothing for anyone or anything until I found myself again. According to Beck ; ” when the road of life gets bumpy ( and then bumpier and bumpier still) use this radical solution. Stop, throw it in reverse and draw up a whole new map.”
I smiled as I sipped my tea and finally felt good enough to take the trek back home….I believe wholeheartedly, that I saved myself from making a bunch of unneccessary mistakes and almost certain illness when I simply stopped without apology or explanation to anyone and took care of the person within.
Life will always bring patches of awfulness but there is truly a lesson within if we sit still long enough to see, feel and hear it…. Some things will change moving forward as there is no way I am walking back into doing things the way they have always been done…that was one of my lessons; move on and do not belabor what isn’t working for whatever reason. Would not have heard the lesson clearly, what those who were closest to me have been saying for months now.
I finally got it. Loud and clear.
That gleam is back and so am I….
Catch you on the flip side….